bah. It has been forever since my last post. Has it not? =p everybody seems to be posting bout college life and such. And I'll tell you. I have absolutely no mood to study right now. my trials started today. Maths and Thinking Skills. Yeah yeah I know what you're thinking. Who the hell needs to learn how to think?!?! Well fine.. it's a stupid subject but it's interesting sometimes. Though I wish our 'I'm-so-smart-but-actually-I-suck' Thinking Skills teacher would stop pretending like she's God and we're idiots or something. Sorry for the rant and for dissing her. I really really hope she ain't reading this.

And Unis. sigh. sigh, sighhhhhhhhh and a longer SIGH!! hahaha. Important decisions in life are so hard to make. I am so torn between the US and the UK it's not funny. =( I've finished with my UCAS application. All I need to do is pick the unis to go with. On the other hand the US education system seems so much more interesting. Shan't bore you with details here. =p

I'll be frank. I like studying. Not plain memorising like SPM style, but studying in general. I love knowledge. I like asking WHY to the max (in my brain) until there is no more why. Till the brink people say 'Why not?' and I want to know why people say 'why not'. I mean, there is a reason for that 'Why not' is there not? But then from a philosophical point of view.. I read this somewhere in our campus library.. a philosophy book btw =D If someone asks you.. 'Is the glass half empty or half full?'.

He says: Half empty.

You say: No, half full.

Well, in truth you're both just agreeing with each other because the answers will meet halfway through anyways. Just because the answer is different does not mean you disagree. Just because different people have different opinions on things does not mean anything is wrong or right. I don't even know if I make sense anymore or if I've just gone off-topic haha =P

Well, I guess I'm just confessing right now that I was hoping to go to uni to develop my intellectual more. Not just for the degree or qualification. I want to see things I've never seen before. Read things I've never imagined before. Do things I've never even heard of in my life. Things my parents would never want to hear about lest they get a heart attack. Life is so much more. And I feel stuck here. Like a bird in a cage. Unlike Jane Eyre though, I want to fly. She can let her passions be caged up all she likes and never get together with Rochester. I don't care. (sorry, Lit is on Friday)

Well, I'll end this with a quote. But I'm thinking what to put down. A romantic quote or a dark one. Gah I'll spare you the dark cynicism. =)

"If all perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger."

Wuthering Heights.

Well actually, the main girl character Catherine said this. But I bet the guy would be thinking the very same thing. Because
1) They are in love and
2) Love in story books is always true love
3) There is no continuation of the book to find out whether one of them dumps each other in 'the end'.

It's so ironic and weird though. If the guy perishes, she would still be. Be what? I assume she would be because she is part of him as he part of her. Yet, she's downgrading herself. Get a hold of yourself woman!! He is more important than you?? So different from Jane Eyre who claims if Rochester(love of her life) dies, she would not die with him coz she intends to live a full life. So practical for a 'fairy-tale' novel.

Good night people! Off to study econs. Let's shift the learning curve outwards shall we?? Econs joke. Yeah.. I'm still as lame as ever. Take care ppl =)